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最近，都一直生病。痊愈了后还再生病。
一个星期前，还食物中毒。没有看医生，那晚，就是自己一个人照顾自己。
呕了，泻了，还有点晕。累了，就一直躺在床上，看着时间过。
真的很想对自己说声对不起，因为对自己不好，伪装让自己累了。很想对自己说声对不起，因为倔强和固执让自己一直受伤，流了太多眼泪。跟自己说对不起，因为别人而为难自己。不愿流露太多的悲伤，总觉得一个人的苦衷若说出太多来，会变虚假，于是我安静了，不想说话了。
I try know your hiding feeling because i know you wont share it with me.
But it just left me with a deep sorry and remorse as there more thousand words i cant tell you.
I having so much to say but just save all the words inside my heart.
i'm inconsolable when say goodbye again.But still i swear to hide the pain when i turn back the pages.
All of you just hold my memories and i cant just easily forget.
So i wishing the pain will never reach you.
